beep beep...we'll be back!

Assalamualaikum,

Heyya! How is everyone doing? How has twenty ten been so far? SRJ Collection has been quiet for a while...for a simple reason that there were not many new items to feature. But, SRJ Collection will definitely be back in action SOON...very very soon!

Just to give u ladies a heads up, I will feature something new in the next collection. After watching Yuna perform at Actors Studio last weekend (yes, I'm a sucker for indie musicians...hehe), I just thot of bringing in some long 'selendangs' for ladies who fancy wearing tudung lilit-lilit like our super talented Miss Yuna.

I'm so excited to transform myself to be Yuna-like :) I'm sure many of you ladies out there are excited too. So, TUNGGUUUUUU!

jiwa kacau

No. Not anything like Pulut Kacau. I am not referring to any sort of food. I don't even have the slightest craving for food at this moment.

I'm still not over it! What is it about him??? Its been 8 months since he called it off...but I am still not over him!

I went off mode for a while, ignoring his calls...ignoring his text messages. After some time when I thought I was ok and that I could already accept the fact that he's not mine anymore, we started communicating again. We started going out for movies, shopping and spending time with each other again (of course with his own 'agendas' on the sides). I would definitely not miss any chance to be with him. The 'happy me' was back :)

However, what was initially based on 'lets be good frens' started to crash me up again. I then realised that I'm still not able to accept the fact. The silly me gets so upset when he's busy with his phone while we're watching movies. The silly me tears like pouring rain when he talks of his plans. The silly me would feel as though there's a dagger stomping on my heart when I hear of names of ladies. The silly me gets crashed when he mentions about his fiance, wedding and sorts.

Move on silly woman! He's moving on...you need to move on too! How I wish my heart would listen to that instead of hoping for nothingness. He was with me a while ago. I was really feeling down. I feel like I'm losing him again. "Cheer up baby girl", he teased me. "My ex-wife just got married and I was ok...I did not cry". Bloody hell! Thats your ex-wife. I am not your ex-wife! And, you and me...we're different! You're a hearless asshole and I'm not! I just can't stop loving you!



How do I get rid of something I do not want to lose? Seriously, there is absobloodylutely nothing good about him...but why do I love him so bloody much?

Jiwaku sungguh kacau... :(

my prayers answered

Alhamdulillah.

Rezqi comes from the Divine. We, as His servant must ALWAYS have faith in him.

Hmmm...I've been moaning, sighing and wat nots...for being jobless and penniless. I've been selling this and that to make ends meet. But still the ends just didn't seem to meet. Frustration hits me all the time. Depression is what I've been living with for the past few months.

Nevertheless, as good friends usually tell me...never stop praying. Talk to HIM and HE will listen. And that was exactly what I did...with a little breakdowns and giving ups once in a while.

29th August, while sitting in front of this dumping box (my notebook that is)...trying to get myself started with script writing, I was questioned about how my sales and other sources of income are getting along in preparation for Syawal. I just told her - NIL. Yes, thats how pathetic it is - NIL! I asked her if she knows of any income generating opportunity. Alhamdulillah, I just happened to ask the right person.

So, ALHAMDULILLAH...I am now the Manager of the Observation Deck of Menara Kuala Lumpur. So ladies and gentlemen...do pay a visit to the Observation Deck. You'll be surprised to learn about the surrounding areas which you never knew.

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Another news of pregnancy in the family. Jealousy strikes...BIG time! Depression mode ON!

My Rabb...help me please...I need peace of mind. I want happiness for once.

Sigh...

shame on me!

We're HISTORY. That's a fact. A fact which this thick skull finds so hard to accept. He's getting married for Goodness sake! Even if he's not...he's just not worth your love, you silly woman!

Yes. Hundreds of people have said that to me. But for God knows whatever reason, I just can't get him out of my system. I guess this line in Ghost of Girlfriends Past so suits me - You'll only be able to get over someone once you find someone else that you care about more. Yeah, maybe its true. Sigh.

We were supposed to meet for Iftar last night. I tried calling him over and over again, but my calls were not answered. None of my SMSes were replied. I just wanted to reconfirm our berbuka puasa bersama. In the end, I went without him. His reply came in much later, appologising - saying that his mobile phone was barred. Still, it did not answer my question...why were my calls not answered??? He replied saying that he's now in the emergency ward at PPUM (his family members all go for medical treatment there coz his dad is somebody prominent in UM). I panicked. What actually happened? Who was actually admitted? None of my questions were answered. All sorts of questions were playing in my mind. Could it be him? Or maybe his mom again? Or his dad? I tried calling him up. Many times...no answer.

Tried calling again this morning...for half a day. No answer. Wouldn't you be panic?

Anyway, I just logged-in to my Facebook account. To my surprise, I saw his status update - Updating status while driving fast from Ayer Keroh.

Dang! That sort of answered my question. That he went to send the AYAM back to her kampung. But why?

So I called him up. Pretended not to know anything. I asked him where he was...he said he's on the way back to KL (but did not tell me where he was from). I asked him who was admitted to the hospital. It took him quite a while to give me an answer. Finally he told me that it was the AYAM. Why was it necessary for him to be responsible for her...and sending her to PPUM instead of other hospitals? And then after that sending her back to Malacca. Why was that necessary??? Nothing like these ever happened when I was ill. Well, maybe I have my family with me...and the AYAM doesn't. But still....isn't he supposed to be mentally preparing himself for his so called marriage, and not bother so much about other ladies???

I know I shudn't be in any position to be upset or angry. I just don't deserve to feel all these after all that have happened between us. But shamefully, its happening. And I'm so angry with myself too, for feeling as such.

Shame on you! You're such a LOSER!

new collection of beautiful jubah

Something new for this festive season. Walk stunningly beautiful in those colourful jubah. It surely will make u feel good this Aidilfitri.

Be creative, be stylish. Mix and match, and look gorgeous.

Refer photos below as samples.

Ok...i've been trying for days to upload the pictures here, actually. Failed. I've decided to just copy the link from Facebook & paste it here. Haha! And so, u'll also get to see pictures of the new tudung collection too :)


http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/album.php?aid=103851&id=612259032


So, have a look. Get some ideas. And come shopping for these items (and more) from SRJ Collection! :)

Ramadhan Al Mubarak

2nd day in this holy month of Ramadhan.

I'd like to wish all Muslim sisters & brothers a blessed Ramadhan. May all our good deeds be accepted by Allah swt.

Ameen.